*PLEASE READ* I need help :/ .... Currently handicapped.?

Well i'm handicapped also, i'm paralyzed from the neck down and I understand where you're coming from when you say that you don't like being in your own body and feeling depressed all the time. All I can give you is just my opinion and its still all gonna be left up to you but if I were you, I would try to do some type of light workout no matter how little it is every little bit helps but you have to stay dedicated and determined. Do any and every exercise that you know of and that you are physically able to do. If you feel that your eating might be playing a part in your weight then you should cut back a little and start eating several small meals a day because that's how you keep your metabolism up and going. Im sorry for your disease, I hope there is someway it gets better and I did take time to look at the picture you put up and you do carry your weight pretty well, like you said and by the way 5'10" is a tall woman! The last thing im gonna say is don't ever give up on anything you do and when things start to feel overwhelming and too tough to keep going, always remember to stop and take time to pray about it.